Weekly Facts of Loss – Something New

Weight Watchers company logo

Weight Watchers company logo (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

If you’ve been following me for awhile, you know that my weigh in day is Sunday. That is changing. I am pleased to say I have joined the Weight Watchers Meeting in my area and my weigh in day will be changing till I find “my meeting”. It will be during the week, I know that much.

So, I did it, I’m now on a monthly pass which provides you access to the weekly meeting and the online tools. This is a big step, I was holed up in my house, accountable only to myself and to a reader like you. I had limited input on new techniques and suggestions. I had no chance of finding an exercise buddy.

Meetings get me out of the house and in a way, out of my own head. When you are an introspective person like I am, and you are a loner, it’s important to put yourself in social situations and get out of your own little world.

My short term goals are two-fold. One is lose five lbs during the next couple of weeks, and second is to start looking for a workout buddy.

Tip For The Week:

One thing I got from today’s meeting is trigger foods. If a food is a trigger food for you, then it can’t be in the house. I keep trigger foods, saying to myself I will portion my servings out so I can have a little of the sweet or salty snack. Well, I can’t do that. I always eat more than I should and they are a temptation.So, no snacks for awhile till I get back on track. Fruit instead.

Thank you for following me through this rocky impasse. I think I’m on track again.




I Can See Clearly – Now Sometimes

My eye

My eye (Photo credit: neuroticcamel)

Sometimes you don’t know how broken something is until you fix it. This was the case with my eyesight. I’ve always worn glasses and I generally get my eyes checked regularly, but I hadn’t gone for a long, long, time until recently, when I had a difficult time reading print books and licenses at work. I thought my eyes were just getting old, and that I was having a normal problem reading. But after I had a thorough exam and bought new glasses, I saw how broken my vision was. Now I can read the numbers on licenses and the fine print on signs at work. I can read paperback books again, the type no longer blurry. I no longer feel like my sight is aging too fast. My eyes had been open to a new perspective.

As I struggle with my weight loss, I am seeing the journey with new eyes. I used to look at the numbers of other weight watchers and I would think “It’s taken you how long to lose how much?” Too long for too little an amount of weight. I am one of those people I looked down upon not long ago. There’s more to this struggle than just eating less and moving more. A lifetime of hiding in food and fat cannot be overcome in a few months. There’s a lot of reprogramming that needs to go on. Old fears and beliefs, old habits all make for a powerful pull to not lose and stay the same, even though the same weight means unhappy and unhealthy.

Finding a new way to relate to food is really hard. Very necessary but a challenge that leaves me drained and seeking familiar solace in a box of cookies. I haven’t found my magic bullet that affords me the same comfort level sans food. Reading, writing, working and my art all provide a great deal of satisfaction, but they don’t take the place of food. Nothing has done that yet. I wonder if I will ever find the answer?

What are your thoughts? Do you struggle with this?


The Weekly Facts of Loss – 38.2Lbs

The Stats: Weigh-in shows a loss of 1.8lbs, bringing me over the plateau of 37 lbs that I’ve been at for so long!

The weekly recap:

This past week has been an OK one, not great, but OK. I made it to the fifty minute mark on the elliptical, which was a goal. Didn’t make it to sixty minutes, but I will soon, maybe next week. I would like to reach four days minimum working out, this week was two. That is why the loss is so little.

I don’t know why I keep slacking on the gym. I know intellectually that I need to go every day, but I allow things to deter me from going. Maybe the new blogs I found this week will help keep me on track next week. The inspiration coming from other people’s accomplishments fueling my work and helping me to stay on track.

I wonder why I am hesitant to really buckle down and work out like I should. Is there an underlying reason this keeps happening? The reason that crosses my mind is the same reason I regained my weight the last time I lost. I wasn’t ready in my head to be thin. Could this be playing out again now? I’ll think about this some more and see if it’s what is happening.

Weight loss blogs:

I went looking for weight-loss blogs this week. I found quite a few and I’ll be featuring them here in the coming weeks.

This week’s blog is Who Ate My Blog.

Steven Vinson was 632 pounds and has lost over three hundred pounds, bringing him close to his weight goal. I don’t like his food choices, but they are working for him, and that’s the important thing. Each person must find what works for them and stick with that.

Tip for the week:

Fresh pear or Gala apple, sliced and topped with light Laughing Cow Blue or chipolte cheese (35 calories a wedge) Point value:1!  Delicious!

Feel good moments this week:

I was at work, waiting on a customer who really wasn’t in the mood to interact, but she looked up from her purse and said that I looked thinner. I told her I was just over 37 pounds and she brightened right up and complimented me on my accomplishment so far. We chatted a bit and I felt really good. She hadn’t seen me in a very long time, and she wasn’t trying to make me feel good. But she did.

The other feel good moment happened when I was with my mom when she was buying a car. The salesperson hadn’t seen me in a while and when we walked outside, she pointed out how good I look now. (Wait till she sees me next year!)

Remember, if you see someone and like how they look, pay them a compliment. You never know what   kind of impact it may have for the other person. It will be a feel good moment for you as well.

Goals for this coming week:

Hit the gym 4x, going for 50 minutes each day on the elliptical or the treadmill, and doing weights two days.

Tracking better

Cooking this week.

The weekly facts of loss 37.4

I’ve not been receiving much feedback  as of late about my weight loss stats and I think it’s because I’ve been including the information in posts that are not written exclusively about the loss. So, I’ll post about the actual weight loss by itself from now on.

I had done well, losing 37 lbs, then I plateaued, then I gained, then I went off plan for a few weeks because I was depressed over my results, then I went back on plan and within three weeks was back at 37 lb weight loss. Today, my stats are: 2 lbs lost (My Goal for the Week!) 19 activity points and four days at the gym on elliptical.

I am still struggling with the exercise. Some days I can go 50 minutes on the elliptical, other days 30 is my limit. Very frustrating.

I wrote of a new hero last week,  (Lynn’sWeigh) Lynn is struggling with gaining back some of the weight she lost. It shows me that it is a constant battle to keep the weight off, even after you reach your goal. Even if you go public in a big way, that added pressure doesn’t save you from stumbling. I feel better about my back slide now. If I go through one or two or however many back slides now, maybe I won’t go through so many after I reach goal? I can only hope and keep working the plan.

Goals for this week: 2 lbs, four – five times at the gym 40 minutes minimum. Begin with weights.


The Fat Trap and Other Truths and Discoveries

I found this article on Dave Kirchhoff’s blog (ManMeetsScale)  the other day,  The Fat Trap by New York Times writer Tara Parker-Pope . It is a difficult article in that it is so honest and dead on. It speaks of the connection between obesity and genetics. This information was sobering, as I look at my family and the weight between the four of us is impressive. I am reminded of the man talking to his friend about his fiance. He wonders if she’ll always be as beautiful as she is now. His friend says look at her mother, that’s the path she could take. You could be seeing your fiance look like her mother in twenty years.  OK, so I surpassed my mother, but not by much. One size. I’m not really into the studies on obesity simply because the information they contain is too negative for someone in my position to process. My intellect is peaked, my ego, not so much.

The article also speaks of the work that it takes to remain thin once you have been overweight. This brought home the realization I had when I started plateauing. This is a challenge you will have forever. Since I have to think in small increments of time to be successful in this loss, I will push this thought to a closed compartment in my mind. It’s simply too daunting and depressing to think about now. No, now is the time for thinking a day at a time, a week at a time. More is out of the question. A couple of pounds at a time is my speed.

A positive I found in all the negative regarding obesity and loss is a blog by Lynn Haraldson Lynn’s Weigh. She has lost 166 pounds and is keeping it off. She’s been on Oprah, the morning network shows, and in People Magazine. I have found a new hero, just when I was looking for one. I’m sure I will link back to her blog frequently. She also has an impressive blogroll that I want to explore. She is in a club I aspire to be in, and in two years, will be. Her original blog during the weight loss was Lynn’s Weight Loss Journey.

So, the stats for this week are four pounds lost. I’m back to where I was before the plateau and gain. My activity points were fifteen. That’s pretty good for me, but this week I’d like to see better stats. This week, my goals are to lose two pounds and to get to one hour on the eliptical three times, workout four times for the week and reach an activity points goal of twenty points.

How Do You Lose A Person (Reblogged)

Here is a post I blogged in January. I thought I would reblog it for my new followers, and to give me a shot of motivation. I did lose six pounds this week so I’m back to being motivated. This is for all who are contemplating weight-loss.

Why do you want to lose weight?

Stop and think about this simple question. Until you can answer this truthfully and passionately you will forever say “I have to lose weight”  and never do anything about it. When you consistently say you want to do something, then you don’t do it, it works on lowering your self-esteem. You feel less than because you are heavy, you feel less-than because you aren’t doing anything about it. You are in a bad place, and you might not know what to do about it. It seems to be an insurmountable dream.

If you read what’s out there about motivation, (and there are lots out there) you will find the information boils down to one main point: If you wait till you feel like doing something, you may never do anything. Sometimes, you have to take action first, then the motivation to go on comes afterward.  That’s what I did, without knowing it was what I was supposed to do to get out of a bad situation. I decided that I would give Weight Watchers Online a try, and went through the motions of starting the plan. I made it through my first meal, and felt a sense of accomplishment, and no hunger. Second meal, same result, Dinner and I realized what I had done; an entire day according to plan. And low and behold, I wanted to do more the next day and the day after that. If I had waited for the motivation, I would still be gaining weight and feeling badly about myself.

Reading more about motivation and attaining goals, I found the  following:

  • Be clear about your one goal and make it measurable
  • Break down the goal into smaller steps that are again, measurable
  • Go public with your plan – nobody wants to fail publicly
  • Read about what you’re doing – learn more about it
  • Find support with someone who will hold you accountable
  • Reward yourself when you reach milestones (don’t go out to eat as a reward please)
  • Make the goal exciting and then feel the excitement along the way as you hit your milestones

In my case, I :

  • Want to lose a person (150 lbs)
  • Want to fit into my extensive “skinny” wardrobe
  • Want to get an Ipad
  • Want to get off cholesterol meds
  • Want to sleep without GIRD and sleep apnea
  • Want to exercise six days a week for an hour at a time

OK, great list, but not concise, not measurable, and too lofty.  But, there is excitement. A good start.

  • Lose 150 lbs in 30 lb increments, losing an average of 2 lbs a week ,weighing myself once a week on Sundays
  • Get an outfit one size smaller to fit into (I raided my sisters wardrobe, but why not a consignment shop?) And when that is achieved get another outfit, etc
  • Start a savings account for the Ipad
  • Get a pedometer and see how much I walk a day, try for 10 minutes sustained activity, then 20 minutes, then 30 minutes till you reach an hour one day. Then build time again for day two, and so on. 10 minutes at a time.
  • Plan meals ahead of time, buying whats on sale and cooking interesting recipes
  • Get regular check-ups with Doctor

There’s motivation built into the plan. With a plan like this, accomplishments are a daily occurrence and they build on each other. And the results Started to show in the first week (11lbs) and each week since. And I am excited, and passionate, and you guessed it, MOTIVATED!

So, don’t wait till you’re ready, jump in and just start to do something, like joining Weight Watchers, or whatever plan you think will work for you. Then take the next small step, then the next, and you too will be on your way to losing that weight you’ve wanted to get rid of for years. You will lose pounds and gain self esteem and motivation that will carry you through till you reach your goals.

Accepting Body Image During Weight-loss

About a year ago, I saw Jennifer Hudson on Oprah talking about and showing off her weight-loss. She went from a size 16 to a size 6, and wouldn’t disclose how many lbs that was. Strange. Anyway, she looks fabulous. She talked about her mind not catching up with her body….I so know what that feels like. I was lost in that place. A skinny body and I wasn’t ready for it, despite working my butt off for it, I felt scared. I’d go shopping and just like JH, I would go to the larger sized clothes, instead of the small size that I was. My head never caught up with my body…until I was fat again, then all felt normal. Fat feels comfortable even though being  this fat is uncomfortable.

Acceptance Begins Now, During the Weight-Loss Process

Improving body image is not something that can be put off till after a weight-loss goal is achieved. I did it that way and failed miserablyIt’s something to be done now, in preparation for the massive loss. Body image is a learned belief propagated by our life experiences and the input from the people around us. Lots of different beliefs went into shaping our present self-image. To change this, we have to find out what we believe.

How Do You Change Body Image?


For one week, keep a journal nearby and write down the thoughts that pertain to self-image. Don’t censure them, just chronicle them.

At the end of the week, see what you have. Look at this self-talk and think about where each thought originated from. Was it something your mom said to you? Did your schoolmates say this to you? Did you read about it? Or is it something you came up with when facing the cultural images of perfection that are thrown at us each day?

Now, write a positive and loving statement for each negative one. These are your new affirmations that you will essentially brainwash yourself with. This positivity is being created by you, not by an outside force. Keep this new list of beliefs near you and refer to it frequently, and when a negative message pops into your consciousness. Eventually, the new will replace the old.

Changing body image doesn’t end with this exercise, you have to make changes in your routine as well. Make sure when you do this that you take steps to achieve the goal of a better body image. Set yourself up for success by making goals that are quantifiable and achievable.

  • Eat well and drink lots of water. Eat foods that are delicious as well as healthy. Enjoy your nourishment and keep to a schedule of three meals a day plus two snacks
  • Exercise daily if possible. Attune yourself to the pleasurable feelings that accompany a good workout.
  • Pay attention to your clothes. Wear things that make you feel good because you look good in them.  Don’t try for perfection, just go for feeling good.
  • Continue to work on the inside…improved body image radiates from within.

 My Goals

I revised my ultimate goal when I set out to lose weight. I know I had the wrong goal the last time I lost. This time I’m shooting for a size 12. Not too thin.  I should be approximately 150 lbs. My focus is on the size rather than the pounds.  Totally attainable.

  • Have a goal of 30 lbs to lose, 1-2 lbs a week to achieve it. Do that 5 times.
  • Exercise 4 times a week for a minimum of a half hour each session
  • Put together five outfits that look good and make me feel good and plan my week with those outfits.
  • Journal daily about the negative voices that cloud my self-image. Do the exercise above and challenge the negative script running through my head

Better self-image is a journey just like weight-loss is. So, I’m adding this to my blog focus this year.

How do you view your body? Have you changed your body image and if so, how did you do it?


Great articles to read:

http://kalimunro.com/wp/?page_id=1048 Changing Your Body Image

http://my.clevelandclinic.org/healthy_living/mental_health/hic_fostering_a_positive_self-image.aspx Fostering a positive Self Image

http://www.webmd.com/healthy-beauty/guide/love_your_body_inside_and_out  Look and Feel Great At Any Weight

http://www.betterhealth.vic.gov.au/bhcv2/bhcarticles.nsf/pages/Body_image_issues_for_men Body Image – Men